Artist: Chris Orrick
Album:  Portraits
Song:   Mom
Typed by: kirenamloh@msn.com, Chris Orrick

[Chris Orrick]
And now that you've been gone for a decade
It's still hard not to cry on my best days
Haven't been to your grave in a couple years
I'm ashamed, but it's hard, mom, still fucking weird
Guess I thought it'd get easier
Might find some peace in you leaving behind your demons here
But here I am turning thirty, just a man on his journey
I'm not mad, understand I'm just hurting
The more that time goes, the older I get
The more I realize the show that you missed, it's a whole lot of shit
I graduated from college with a degree in the politics
Had a dream and I followed it, crossed the country and ocean
...And you missed all of it
But I'm alright though, still walking that tightrope
I have my days and I go through my phases
Where I'm fazed by the little things, but that's life though
And yeah, I'm still with Kath
Thirteen years and no kids, just a little cat
His name's Pistachio, for short we call him Stash
Still doing rap, but feeling like I'm falling back
And Steve and Mike are doing good
Couple engineers trying to make a better livelihood
And Jay's a little troublemaker, hard on him but I love him
And I don't wanna see him struggle later
Dad's doing the best that he can
I'm just praying for some rest for that man
Wish I could have seen the two of you when you were younger
Grow old together, couple things have messed with that plan
And my plans need some work of their own
Keep you alive in these words that I wrote
Cause you'll never meet your grandkids and never see your kids married
I guess that's the part that hurts me the most
It isn't what you missed before, but what could have been
What's to come and what should have been
And every year I miss you more
See your reflection in that man in the mirror when I take the time to look at him